Have made a few pathetic attempts at rekindling old friendships lately…mostly the results have been dead ends…I really only have myself to blame but heh. Knowing that doesn’t make it easier to deal with. I just can’t believe how cut off from people I let myself get over the past couple of years. I literally feel like an alien all the time. And all I can think of are these people who had a place in my life but who I let slip away, replaying memories over and over, having pretend conversations in my head, thinking about what it would be like to talk to them again. It’s so freaking sad! I can’t even have real conversations so I just make them up -.- It’s worse when I’m making my way to and from uni…there’s too much fucking time waiting around or walking where I have nothing to turn my attention to, so I just keep thinking of how pathetically lonely my life has gotten. And I hate that I’m actually complaining about this ._.

I was and am such a terrible friend. It’s taken me so long to realise this. I feel like apologising to those I miss dearly.

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twitchy-witchy: Was quite surprised when I realised how long my hair is now :DIt’s wet in this picture but yeah. On a related note, my hair smells delicious :3 aiming to have Rapunzel hurr

twitchy-witchy:

Was quite surprised when I realised how long my hair is now :D
It’s wet in this picture but yeah. On a related note, my hair smells delicious :3

aiming to have Rapunzel hurr

Need to do some serious damage control with uni and eating healthy and exercising regularly :/ We’ve had take out A LOT lately and on top of that I haven’t been exercising regularly the way I used to (not counting the little bits of strength training I do BEFORE BED, which is a terrible time to do exercise btw). I’ve noticed how sluggish and awful I feel all the time -.- and I’ve regained my tummeh pooch ;< boohoo

I wish I could write like I used to…
Is it something about getting older, losing my “creative” flair?

I don’t even know.

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Laura Marling - Ghosts

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This afternoon.

This afternoon.

I spend a lot of time admiring how beautiful colours are and how different lighting during the day colours everything uniquely. I wish I could capture every little thing I see.

I spend a lot of time admiring how beautiful colours are and how different lighting during the day colours everything uniquely. I wish I could capture every little thing I see.

Have decided I will get the distressed leather litas even though originally they were meant to be a reward for reaching 44 kilos…which I still have yet to do. I’ve wanted them long enough :D

dreaaamy

dreaaamy

bunny dress and platform jc/nasty gal boots ^-^

bunny dress and platform jc/nasty gal boots ^-^